It’s been a month now. Five weekends.
The first two I didn’t get out of the city, because I still had moving out to do and a few projects to finish on the build.
The first weekend I finished moving my stuff into storage and hooking up the solar electricity. I bought a deep cycle battery at Interstate, a battery box at Home Depot, and though still intimidated by the project of hooking up a solar system, I managed not to fuck anything up.
Late Sunday night I mounted up the water pump and ran what hose I could to get the sink operating, but I was short a couple of hose clamps and was very tired so I called it quits just short of completion.
One day the following week, I stopped by the house to hang out with my cat and finish up the plumbing. He slept with me in the van that night, first curled up on the driver’s seat, but as the night cooled down he ended up next to me.
The next weekend I was so burned out that instead of making a rugby trek into the mountains, I opted to lay around the house with my oldest best friend and binge movies. It was 100% worth it. I was feeling 6 months of working overtime weeks and van build weekends and I was tired. I may still be, but the more I minimize, the more centered I feel in my decision to make such a radical change in lifestyle. I’m finding rest in a variety of places now and doing my best to listen to my body and my mind’s desires to be still.
Here are a few reflections from the last month.
1. Firsts are difficult.
The first week was the least comfortable. The first morning I cooked eggs and chorizo on the camp stove was the least graceful (the propane kept leaking). The first time I peed in the middle of the night in a wag bag was the weirdest (as I squatted just a few feet from my pillow). The first time a coworker asked if I needed a place to stay was the most awkward (he completely understood my decision one I explained). Now all of those things feel regular.
2. Food is a relationship.
I purposefully didn’t design a fridge in the build because my intention was to only be traveling in the van. I was also considering that they use a lot of energy and a bit of space and I didn’t think I needed it. I don’t. I’m at the grocery store every couple days and I’m (mostly) eating everything I buy. I currently have a jar of strawberry jam and I’m afraid I’m going to be sick of PBJs before it’s gone. I’ll get back to you about that. So far, the small cooler I have is perfect.
I’m alone A LOT which generally suits me since I’m an introvert (also because I’m trying to find an artist’s way aka hustling all my waking hours to do something meaningful), but it has made my weekend interactions more intentions and my chosen tribe more apparent. I’m also very productive, because I have no excuse not to be. Equally, my sleep schedule is on point.
There’s so much more to say, but I’ve run to the end of a train of thought. More to come another day. Peace.